Tuesday, November 08, 2005

with my whole heart and soul, i hate dawn.

i decided to visit her blog, and realised she relinked. her new blog, plain and simple, but more than enough to satisfy my curiousity. and my oh my, every inch of that bloody blog reminds me of NL. look at how she signs off her posts! ROAR. and then i started reading her posts, nothing much of the ordinary, mainly about her life just like what all the rest of us blog about. and then i read on somemore, then i came to the very interesting parts.

there's one post about NL. i read everything, and i just feel like screaming into her bloody face. dont get me wrong, i dont dislike her because of her current occuptation. i just cannot stand her character. how she treats ME ; so things happened in the past, now she's the lucky girl, why be jealous of me? i've called her hphouse phone at LEAST 3 times for the sake of communication b/w both of them, yet there's not a words of thanks. she merely says " k, bye" and puts down the phone hurriedly everytime i call.

ok, so maybe im the inconsequential character in this story. so how about the way she treats NL then? c'mon, 8months and not one fucking meeting? sore eyes, fever, grounded by parents, EXCUSES galore. and what a coincidence, she's always sick whenever they are supposed to go out. i really feel sorry for NL, really. all the sweet words, sweet testimonials, sweet msges, sweet phone calls, but not one bloody meeting, turned down every single time. how sad, tsk.

too bad she doesn't know that i've gone behind the scenes so many times, trying to help NL and just lend my tired listening ear to endless stream of things that seem to go wrong b/w them.

i dont know why im getting so worked up over this, afterall, i should be pretty damned used to this by now shouldn't i?

dawn ain't stupid, but she sure is oblivious about why NL has never shouted at her nor blown up. and damn it, i hate it that she takes full advantage of that fact.

and sure she thinks she knows NL by the back of her hand. im sure she does, but guess what, i know NL by the back of BOTH MY HANDS. she's known NL for merely 8months. heh, guess what dawney, i've known NL for 2 bloody years dear.

and just before i read all this from dawney's blog, guess who called me? :D but damn it, i've got tuition later, how am i supposed to go to orchard this afternoon!

i've no mood to take a nap after reading all that and blogging all this out. ROAR.

other reason why i dislike dawn to the ultimate -

1) she's smart with good results, damn good results.

2) even though she's not in any sports as her CCA, she can run her 2.4km in 10mins plus. DAMN.

3) her connection with NL

4) she's skinny, 47kg at 1.7m

im wso worked up right now. im gonna go for a run, something which i've avoided for a long time. then when i get home, i shall do so many situps, crunches and whatnot till i can't move anymore. let's see how hard i can run when im mad. let's see how far this fury brings me.

i hate dawn. and i just love typing the words "hate" and "dawn" in the same sentence.

my permanent scar, just tell me that you know. please.

3:16 PM