& did you know,
I never expected this to happen,
but I do,
I do like you (:
Thursday, November 24, 2005
and so im back to square one, but with a slight difference this time. now, i want to MAKE my self FAT, so that i can HATE myself for being FAT, then i can STARVE myself and skip meals and all to try and lose the bloody weight. and of cos as always, i'll hardly manage to lose any weight. all this would then give me a better reason to hate myself and self hurt, which in turn would satisfy this unusual craving i have for pain.
oh fuck, im so screwed.
and to top it all off, my brother had to proudly annoy me by announcing that he'd scored 243 for psle which obviously topped my 237 score.