Tuesday, October 11, 2005

i slept at 8.45pm last night, and i had a one hr nap from 6-7pm mind you! i guess those late nights or rather, early mornings have finally caught up with me. i averaged 3 hrs of sleep per day and im starting to feel the effect of that now.

i woke up this morning still really tired, but it was much needed rest all the same.

during my 8.5hr sleep, i had a very nice dream. it's queer how such nice dreams can follow after what happened in the afternoon.
it's never the words that hurt, but how their said.
it's never the act of speaking, but from who those words come from.

thankyou to viv for letting me listen to your music on the way home. i tried to study on the bus, but gave up. it wasn't because the bunch of sec 2 girls were happily noisily laughing their heads off, nor was it because the chai chee sec boys at the back were making one hell of a racket. my mind just kept drifting off .. i looked at my geog text, read the words there, but thought about other things instead.

i shouldn't be on the computer now. where has my self-restraint and control all gone? i did not come to the computer to blog about today's events, or listen to music {both of which i am currently shamelessly doing}, but to look for something on the net.

this uncanny urge to read the testimonials between them suddenly came over me. but now as i sit here typing this, i can't bring myself to log into Friendster and start reading. it's not like reading those is going to help. i KNOW it's not. im past the stage of being hurt, but yet this feeling keeps creeping over me ..

i take back what i said yesterday.
i do not hate nicholas lim.
that would be contradicting myself wouldn't it?

maybe ...
some other time perhaps.

2:10 PM