& did you know,
I never expected this to happen,
but I do,
I do like you (:
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
i had such a weird dream. it was broken up into 3 different parts. the email one ... that's gotta be the weirdest. it was nice i suppose, made me smile in my dream. i dont want to try and intepret anymore. scary.
let's label this girl in class, N. alright, porlly everyone knows that our class doesnt have good runners. we're not full of psorts people anyway. N was telling this other girl, " WE REALLY NEED TO WIN THE ZANY PARADE, COS IT'S LIKE OUR CLASS RUNNERS ARH .. YAH .. " then she went on talking about all the other good runners in the level who can do 2.4km in 10mins+. she was counting all of them, and saying that we'd never get any of the top 10 places cos our class can't run. BTW, she's a RUNNER as well.
so maybe she doesn't care about the run her self. or she doesn't care much abou the class either it seems. she KNEW i was one of the runners. if she's got nothing better else to say, why the heck can't she just SHUT HER STUPID MOUTH. it's not very encouraging, to hear her say smoething like that 2 days before the xc.
i've already had no mood to run xc, what more after hearing that remark. SURE, tell me not to care about others. it's not that easy. there's no one in class whom i can run the whole race with. there's no one who can pace me for the whole race, which would make running this xc a LOT easier.
the whole class's gonna be busy with the Zany parade. no one's gonna care how badly our class has done. if im not mistakne, prizes are gonna be given to the top 6 (out of 10) runners per class. WHAT'S THE USE?!
i dont see what's the use of me bineg vice capt in the team. afterall, coach doesn't even regard me as one. all the instructions, she only tells mf. when i PURPOSELY go to listen to what the instructions are, she doesn't even look at me. doesnt even notice im there prolly. im non existeant aren't i? i've often contemplated with resigning from vice capt. but then, i've not. maybe im selfish, i like the position too much. or maybe .. i dunnoe what else.
syu said that she wants to quit, again. i dont know what to do. im not pissed with her, how can i be. i was never pissed with those who quit. i was just very, tremendously frustrated. amanda may just quit if syu decides to quit too. and that leaves me & mf for the sec 3s?! me & mf do NOT go. she hardly even talks to me. well no matter what, syu, it's your decision, and i'll always respect it.
there are these VERY irritating sales people who and i was rushing home. then suddenly this short man, who spoke funny approached me.
/START irritating sales person : er miss? how was your day? me : walks to the lft irritating sale person : walks to the lft me : walks to the right irritating sales person : walks to the right, er miss? so .. how was your day? me : it was good, till you asked me that question
/END
ain't it quite sad that 2 out of 3 of my msn conveersations were started were started because of my msn nick? and they both started the same way too, "who's ignoring you".
alright, so pardon me if you think im being such a bitch and all, because today's not one of those days that im gonna bother.
my face is burnt.i dont care. i feel as though my heart/brain has been burnt as well.
