& did you know,
I never expected this to happen,
but I do,
I do like you (:
Saturday, July 02, 2005
i did some e maths today. keyword : some.
i pretty much hate myself for being so miserable and all. all of a sudden, i just see no reason to cheer up. there's nothing much forward for me to look forward to, apart from TESTS. i need motivation, more then anything else right now.
when things sucked at home, i'd look forward to school and trng. but when ALL three suck, there's nothing else left. nothing much has changed about trng, just that things at school & at home are on my mind all the time, i can't do my best. and then i lag behind the others, come in last for everything. it just adds on the depression.
it took a 37 minute run to finally make me feel one ounce better. best thing was, it rained while i was runnig. and i got soaked right through. shirt, shorts, socks, shoes & hair. wet throughout. it's the best thing that's happened so far.
i wanna get out of the house. i wanna pon school. i wanna pon trng.