& did you know,
I never expected this to happen,
but I do,
I do like you (:
Sunday, January 16, 2005If i had a punching bag, i'd write the name "malcom" on a piece of paper, tape the paper onto the bag, and punch it nonstop.
generally, im quite sociable and talkative even though i may not have known the person for long. i open up to people quite easily when asked about things. im quite willing to answer any questions even if they may be as simple as "what class are you from", "what is your chinese name". i've known somebody that i haven't spoken to and knew for only one day, and i was willing to tell my chinese name. the key word is GENERALLY.
i didn't have a very good impression of him the first time i was sabo-ed at macs on fiza's bday. now every time he chats with me, without fail, he'll say smthg to make me angry. fiza helping me with maths does not make my maths "cannot make it" AND who i like/dislike/hate/love/care about/don't give a damn about/befriend/don't friend is NONE of his business. NONE. ZILCH. ZERO.
i've taken yide's very good advice to me for keeping my sanity : block him. DONE! i'll only unblock him once im not angry. im not being petty about my maths. i know it's bad. i screw up tests after tests, exams after exams and year after year. i don't need someone im not particulary close to tell me that. i don't see why he needs to know what class i am in, what my chinese name is or who i like/dislike/hate/love/care about/don't give a damn about/befriend/don't friend. i know that fiza is quite good friends with him and tells him alot, it just so happens he isn't my "quite good friend" so he isn't gonna get so much information out of me.
talk about insensitivity and bluntness. this is a perfect example. like i told yide : none of my future boyfriends are gonna be called malcom. the sight or sound of their puts me off so much. haha!
sue and i were talking on the phone and tagging my blog at the same time. then we decided to put down the phone and chat online and tag my blog at the same time instead. we were talking about him, the WHOLE tagboard is about him. YUCKS. what a waste of tagboard space. GAH!
i haven't been so angry for quite a while until ytday. he's irritated me for 2 days in a row already. jus said the wrong things. he can call me petty, immature, short tempered .. ANYTHING bad i don't care. all the better, he'd stop talking to me right? simply m a r v e l l o u s.
sue said that he likes someone im quite close to and i know quite well. oh my. i pity that person. i sincerely would like to tell her im so sorry that he likes her. i can't think of any one that'd fit the clues though. im trying to think of all the people i know who know him. fiza, sue, dido, hidayah, farhanah, atiqah. dont' tell me he likes one of THEM? oh dear. that would be so sad.
i finally sent off the email i've been planning to send off for so long. finally got it done, sent and it's been recieved. i dont' feel sad as though a part of me is gone, or as i've lost something really dear. i feel the sort of sadness i felt on the last day of school when i realised vanessa was leaving tkg .. but a 100 times more. i was really sad that vanessa would leave. i feel the same this time, but much sadder. BUT i'll be fine, i'll be strong, i'll keep myself occupied with OBS, school work and training. and i'll be fine. just you watch me. =) im having such a fun conversation about punching and sueing him with yide. WHEEE. so fun. thankgoodness i've got yide as a friend. someone willing to help me sue and make him poor, while i punch and break his bones.
