& did you know,
I never expected this to happen,
but I do,
I do like you (:
Monday, October 18, 2004
happy birthday
happy birthday fie! haha. i highly doubt yoo haf time to read my blog. but anyway. hope yoo liked the testi i wrote yoo =)
i haven been bloggin much lately. no mood. suddenly the thought of failing sec 2 n having to retain seems constantly on my mind. hmmm. but worrying about my results ain't gonna make them any better. since the papers are wayyyyy over. n we're getting them back 2mr. shitttts. hahas. [y the heck m i laffing?]
currently down with a sore throat. my mum is banning my bro frm coming near me! haha. cos his finals r nearing. n he needs to study blahblahblah. no complains.
i just realised something. hols r nearing! but tt isn much good news to me. n fiza .. cos we'll b sitting in sch trying to organize some thingy for the nxt yr sec 1s. ooooh boy. im like totally looking forward to spending my free hrs in sch. can't yoo detect how over-enthusiastic i am?
i haf finally figured out why i am taking sooo long to understand what im doing abt Ricola. tt's cos im stoooooopeeeeed. my bro calls me a stoopeeed girl at home. come to think of it, my dad calls me dumb too. of cos he's trying to make a joke. but hearing the same joke for as long as i can rmb in my 13-going-on-14-in-2 months n 9 days life span.
so i've finally come to conclude that : I, Rachel Ong Su Lin, is a fcuking stupid girl who can't get her life in order. incapable of controlling her life. whoa. tt wld look so nice on my resume when i apply for a job nxt time.
right. im a fcuking stupid girl.
how nice.
oooooooh. best part is, im a caaling myself stupid before i've even gotten back my results. what's dumber than stupid? aaaaaaaah. see! i don't even know that. i've gotta be real dumb.
and for those people who DO read my blog. im NOT wallowing in self pity alright. don't bother telling me that.
im just feeling like shit right now. ooooooh. best part is, no one noes what's troubling me, but one.
ahahkx
apparently bballers went to ecp to cycle today. hmm. im sure they enjoyed themselves. fiza n sue didn go. neither did i. lols.
eh fiza. i said i wanted to go to ecp to STONE and RELAX rmb? i may haf mentioned blading too. but i distinctly didn state abt cycling with the team. not that cycling with the team is wrong. forget it. im way too stoooopeeed to try n get my point across right now.
i lost my book of answers. it wasn of any good anyway. couldn't find any solutions to my problems in there.
im searching for the answer. im searching for myself. im searching for the real ME.
